I am longing for a baby, I have been ready since I was around 18 years old, I know I was put on this earth to be a mother and it pains me every waking day to not have a child. I have just made a very brave decision in leaving an abusive relationship whilst on the NHS Waiting list for fertility treatment. I am proud of myself for not allowing myself to stay in a unhealthy environment because of how badly I want a baby, I have been brave enough to leave my relationship which now means I am unable to go ahead with treatment. It has been a very tough decision because of how badly I want a child but I know mine and my child’s safety comes first.