I am a nice, eternally happy, and intelligent person. I am exceptional in a couple ways and I would like more people to be able to have what I was lucky enough to be born with. I think I have a chance at changing the world for the better and having kids of my own would make it less likely that I could make it happen.
I am hyperthymic. I do not get sad. I am basically always happy. I am angry for about 10 minutes per year. If life happens and somehow I get yelled at I feel 100% fine and happy. I feel that life is wonderful all the time. Being hyperthymic is a mild form of mania. I am overly generous, I have a lot of energy. I am always doing something, I have a million hobbies. I am a serial entrepreneur. I have a lot of compassion for everyone including myself. I want everyone to be happy. I want to be friends with everyone. I am very self confident, and social. When others have good experiences I feel good with them. When others feel bad I do not feel bad with them but I do feel the desire to help them and the desire for them to be happy. It also makes me sometimes overly adventurous. It also makes me a bit of a night owl, I usually go to bed about 1am.
I have 160 IQ. I learn quicker than anyone I know even though I have a lot of very smart friends. I make deeper models of the world and understand how things work better than everyone I know. Once I am in a group for a while I naturally become some sort of leader eventually. I can run complex code in my head. I can model shapes and objects and simulate them pretty well. I am a full stack engineer in the sense that I have professional level skills and have worked on many aspects of products in product design, manufacturing, electronics, firmware, web design, backend programming, android programming, algorithms, and data science. My day job is machine learning and I am exceptional at this.
I have ADHD, primarily inattentive (not hyperactive). I have a hard time ignoring stimuli. I have a hard time paying attention to things without stimulus. I have a hard time resisting impulses when it comes to food or conversation. This makes me much better at some tasks than normal and worse at other tasks. The key is learning how to craft my environment and work with the grain of my brain.
I'm probably in the 30th percentile when it comes to reading ability with physical books. It takes many acts of will per page to pay attention to something without a stimulus. I'm probably in the 99.5th percentile in reading ability for audiobooks. It takes an act of will for me to not pay attention to an audio book because there is a stimulus. I read about 50 audiobooks a year, most of them about science, technology, business, math, or neuroscience. I can control my actions well if I can control my environment and what stimulation is in it.
My memory is below average. My vocabulary is small although I am an excellent communicator. I have a small number of indexes to concepts, but each concept is much more complex relative to most people. I have a hard time memorizing a lot of things, but I can understand a system of complex equations and remember them well. I know a lot of things and have a bunch of skills but they often need to be attached to a bigger model of a system.
There is a history of alcoholism on both sides of my family, and also some circuitry problems on my fathers side. I am very healthy, pretty fit and exercise every day.
I can trace my lineage on my fathers side of my family to the point that their boat crashed on the shores of Massachusetts back during the times of the puritans before America was founded. My family was one of the founding families in the town. They were boat builders and there is still an extended family building large boats the traditional way. I grew up in a 200 year old house my great great grandfather built. My grandfather was probably hyperthymic as well, full of energy, owned multiple small businesses and was the fire chief of the town. My father is a programmer and is also hyperthymic and is pretty much always happy. My mother's side of the family were third generation polish immigrants.
I am happy to have minimal contact with a biological kid. Career advice, life advice, maybe buy them a lego robotics kit. Around once every few months per interaction, or less depending on what you prefer.
I want to make sure that you are in a good life position to raise a kid, love them, and give them the support they need. If they are anything like me, they will need to be advocated for because of adhd in academic settings. I qualified for the special ed classes because of the adhd and also the gifted program because of my intelligence. I ended up doing ok but below average in language centered classes, but I got 3 classes ahead in math. The reason I ended up skipping a grade was because my mother advocated for me.
You should give them access to learning resources in academic settings.
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