The most difficult part about being in a same sex relationship is the ability to have a baby. I have wanted nothing more than to be a mom pretty much all my life. I have a beautiful family, we are very close knit and I have so many beautiful nieces and nephews I have helped raise into the upstanding young adults they are today. But I still feel so empty. I want to feel my own baby grow inside me, I want the morning sickness, the cravings, the mood swings.... I want it all. So many women complain about pregnancy and the crying babies and colic and sleepless nights. But those women don't realize how truly blessed they are to have created a life. My wife and I want nothing more then for me to carry a little one of our own. I'm at a total loss of what to do. The ongoing process of procedure after procedure and high Dr bills does not appeal really. We would like to be able to still provide for our little bundle of joy after we conceive. We are both 34 years old and are hoping to begin this journey while we are still young and able.