One of the things I regret most in life is not having had children. Now, in middle-age, it is really kinda stupid for me to have kids. When they graduate from high school I will be...well....dead! Still, the idea of leaving behind my DNA has become somewhat if an obsession for me. I would very much like to meet a much younger woman, someone who is really into pregnancy risk sex, have raw, bareback sex and see if it takes. I could then leave this earth, when my time comes and know that my genes carry on in my absence.

I think the fact that my parents have passed away, my younger brother is dead and the fact that I have no living relatives of any kind has given me a sense of detachment from the rest of the world. It is a very disconcerting feeling, I must say. Since I had no kids, when I do die, there will be nothing left on the planet that is me. I know it sounds selfish, but the biological need is a force I never had planned to reckon with. Tis sad tis true, Tis true tis sad....